I love it, but I’m always at a stump on what shoes to wear. A majority of my heels are open toed, and the ones that aren’t…are too dressy for..well casual outfits lol. I don’t always want to wear my kicks, and I can’t wear boots with bootleg jeans.
i want to go to disneyland…or any amusement park…or museum..idk about any of you, but i feel a certain way whenever i go to those types of things, like i’m excited and happy and i just love the vibe and feeling i get walking in and exploring. idfk.
time to shower. picking up babes in an hour then getting ready for interview.
t’was cooking dinner and got distracted and forgot to take my pill on time :( i know it’s “okay” to take it an hour before OR after normal time but i’m pretty fucking anal about taking it on time. damnit.
eating dinner at 9 at night. grrr. i HATE eating so late at night but it’s SO damn hard to not do so when i’m basically living the boyfriend’s lifestyle. especially when he starts work. i’m just going to need to find a way to adjust.
tomorrow i’m opening up a bank account. MAYBE dropping the babes off for his first day back at school. gotta go dollar tree. and a fucking car wash. she needs it..
I like to talk but sometimes I get so frustrated that I cant deal with it ya kno?
i kinda wish i had that mindset. because with me, i think being silent just doesn’t fix anything. the whole “time heals” blah blah whatever, idt it heals. it just pushes it aside until you “forget” & then once you remember again it’s just like, pointless.
OMG I KNOW! hahaha its so aggravating!!! i think it’s easier to make up when you are actually together though. well when i get married you guys are most definitely on the list. he’s familly, and so are you basically haha.
definitely. how are you and pat with arguments and such? you know how elliott is. he just shuts me out. i don’t like it one bit. but there’s nothing i can do, so when we’re long distance it just makes every fight last that much longer -_-“
& sweet haha. if we ever have a wedding or a court wedding; you’re invited lols.
thank you. its been rough but im trying to stop bein less bitchy haha.thats a bummer he’s not excited. id be nervous to though because its something new to you guys. i really hope it works out! i believe it will because you guys really love eachother
it’s hard not to be a bitch when there’s clear reasons to but the guy just doesn’t see things the way a girl does. THAT’S what pisses me off the most. But what I’m really looking forward to is the fact that he’ll be in front to me or next to me so I’m able to physically abuse him and make sure he understands why I’m mad LOL. & I know he’s reading this so he’ll laugh at that. But yeah it’s a big step in commitment, I kinda realized that in depth & stopped bugging him about marriage. “one step at a time Josephine” lol. but you and pat are really cute together and it’d be nice to see ya’ll last too. Maybe I’ll attend your wedding since Elliott’s your bro hahah.
aw :) you’ve been in long distance longer than me and i give you so much prop for that. its not easy at all and the day comes you actually get to be with him, thats amazing. i hope i can say the same as you one day.
Yeah, we’ve been long distance probably 90% of our whole freakin relationship. It’s going to be weird being with him though, like, it’s not a vacation anymore yknow? I mean, I’m really excited, but Elliott isn’t. He’s happy and all, but not excited. He’s mostly worried and scared and nervous. I was really nervous and all that last week, still am now. It’s just hard to be excited when you’re the only one feeling that way -_-” Long distance is a big bitch, we both know that. I just read your little rant or vent or whatever & I can understand how you feel. Once Elliott told me that he didn’t like coming home from work to talk to me because I would just ruin his day with my depression. I have all these different kind of stages, depression, utter happiness, excitement for no fucking reason, scared to death about pregnancy (that one isn’t a stage, that’s 100% of the time haha) but he semi gets used to it and it makes me stop because I don’t like getting him mad. Sorry this is turning into some long ass reply. But yeah; it’s hard. If you think he’s worth the pain, then stick with him. If you can’t see yourself with anyone else, don’t let your relationship fail. Do what you need to do. Kill who you need to kill :P Nah, but if you know he’s the one you want to spend the rest of your life with, don’t let him go. Despite Elliott being a pain in the ass or acting like a douche, he’s still the most important person in my life and I’m too emotionally attached to him to let go. So do what you need to do to make things happen ^.^
I know you saying that you’re happy for me about moving out and such was just a mere friendly gesture, but it means a lot to me and I’d just like to thank you again.
You’re really the first and probably only person (so far I guess..but probably not) to say they are happy for me and what I am doing. It really made me happy and I don’t care if you think I’m weird for that :P It’s just that so far I’ve gotten negative feedback with anything that has to deal with moving out and it’s been quite depressing and it sucks not being able to enjoy something that I’ve been working to get for over 2 years.