Tomorrow makes three months since I’ve moved here.
Boyfriend gets here in 6 days. Today is my last day off while boyfriend is gone. Don’t want to do anything today, just lay on the couch and relax and be lazy.
It sucks though that I have to get up and go return these movies though.
Watching Hall Pass,
I don’t think I’d give one to future husband, but yeah. Homewreckers and cheaters, so bad. Movies make married couples seem so bad, like it’s the end of everything. Marriage can be and should be a beautiful thing, right now I feel as if we’re married, and I can’t wait to make it official and be able to call Elliott my husband. I just hope one day far from now, with all the things we’ve already been through, with everything we’ve had to learn from all the fights, I hope we can just continue to learn more from every fight and build our relationship to be stronger.
Something a bit off topic but still in the same subject…I think that if you truly love someone, you could go ape shit crazy with everything and at the end of the day you still only love and care about that one person. That’s the only person on your mind.
yeah i know i’m supposed to be a big girl, but i don’t like coming home and not seeing you, or not being able to expect you to come home soon. but i’m glad it sounds like you’re having a good time.
i miss you.
they are having christmas lights show in bellevue until january 2nd or something. don’t you think we should go? because you weren’t able to take me to the one in tokyo, maybe can go to this one (: just a suggestion.
work, was the first person to show up. then manager showed up but she lent her key to the new keyholder but she was 2 hours late to work, the other key holder was late too. worked, did shipment all day. not too bad. went home, hella falling asleep on the way home. stopped by k-mart to pick up a few things. came home and did the dishes, cleaned the bathroom, fed the cat, fed the gerbil, fed myself, then started wrapping all the gifts, tree looks prettier now that the tree has gifts underneath it (:
now i’m wondering why boyfriend hasn’t messaged at all, aromatherapy candle is lit and i’m trying to decide what to fall asleep to (movie, tv show wise) day off tomorrow but gotta go send christmas gifts, lunch with someone, then dying someones hair.
p.s. i’m not being racist but…there were black boys yelling at each other in front of my house earlier, i got scared and texted boyfriend’s best friend telling him that if i hear a gunshot i’m calling him a.s.a.p…..i was scared, and i hope my car wasn’t touched.
Me and boyfriend don’t even know what we want from each other. Like there’s things we’d like, but there’s not necessarily anything we really want. I even had him go to the mall with me to look for what he wanted but walked out with nothing. I made a comment about it saying that it’s probably because we’re just really happy with having each other that we don’t want anything, I was slightly just being like a “ha ha” type thing but at the same time, it’s true in a way I think. At least, I know that I’m happy to have him, regardless to what we go through. Seeing him smile because of me is the best feeling, seeing him happy with me is even a better feeling. Sigh, I still want to put gifts under the tree though.
I can’t believe it’s December already. I got here in September. I mean, it hasn’t felt like I’ve been here for that long. I went to work, was scheduled an hour earlier than usual today. It felt weird. I talked a lot more to my assistant manager, she seemed to let more personality show ever since we became facebook friends lol. She’s legit though. The three of us got grossed out by a sugar daddy, he was so..repulsive. His “girlfriend” looked to be about 14, trying to look older by wearing heels. (yeah i probably look the same way but that’s besides the point) and the things he would say were very disgusting and made us cringe. I got to leave work early though because the store was dead by 8:40 so I didn’t have to be there, I finished my section before 8 and helped fix the rest of the store by 8:15 and spent the rest of the time double/triple checking everything and talking to my co-workers. I went home to see boyfriend sleeping, cuddled with him for a while because he hugged me and wouldn’t let go. After he let me go, I made myself some kimchee soup and made him a turkey ceasar salad to get rid of our thanksgiving left overs. We watched the amazing race while eating, he’s not one for spicy food but I made him try my soup because I add hella things to it to make it less spicy and more to my preference. He was very hesitant but while he was tasting it he made eye contact with me and we both smiled and laughed because we knew we were both thinking the same thing. “oishii desu ne?!” i said. second time this week I had him try something new and he liked it. I don’t know what happened after that..
December 2, 2011
I couldn’t drop boyfriend off to school today because I slept/woke up with an excruciating headache. When he left, I moved to the couch and tried to go back to sleep but couldn’t even do so with the pain so I took some tylenol and checked my e-mail. Then went back to sleep and it went away, woke up and made our hair appointments then went back to sleep for a while. Met boyfriend at the hair place and our hair dresser definitely is amazing. My hair has changed pretty dramatically ever since he worked wonders on it back in October. He says my hairs definitely growing faster and healthier and he only had to trim off half an inch because it was still really nice. He commented and complimented on my hair color again, that always feels good. When I told him I had done it myself but it basically faded and this seems to be my permanent hair color he smiled and told me it was so consistent and it looks so good on me, *smiles. We laughed about a previous stunt done to the boyfriend and talked about work and such. Then boyfriend and I got some lunch and headed over to get a Christmas tree, things weren’t going so well and so the supposed to be joyous moments of getting Christmas decorations weren’t existent. He didn’t listen to me when I said for him to go home since the tree wasn’t as heavy as I had expected, so I didn’t want to drag him along while I thoroughly looked at all the Christmas things. Now, I’m left with a tree with the balls but I need a garland. It’s not looking up to my expectations right now. I didn’t talk to boyfriend for a few hours even though we were in the same room. But before he had to leave he apologized and that’s where I’ll leave that. He’s been gone for 5 hours now and won’t be coming back any time soon because he is out with his boys and I will not get in the way of that. I still promise myself and him that I won’t be that kind of girlfriend regardless to some of the things he thinks about me. Now I still feel nauseous and I’m hoping going to sleep and calling it a night will make me feel better. Our bed has a hole in it somehow and it’s a pain to sleep in, literally. It’s hurting my neck and back even more, and even with our new blanket I was still cold last night, I was even wearing more clothes than the other night! Not a good feeling. Good night.
I’m here downtown…all by my lonesome. Traffic was bad but not bad enough because I got here an hour early. I can’t remember exactly where I parked…not a good feeling…I DO have an idea though. Hopefully I will find my way back. I parked across from a dirty white mark4 though. The guy was in it and I nodded and smiled hello. Now I’m at Starbucks at the bottom of this building drinking a peppermint mocha drink. Unfortunately it’s habit for me to say grande…this drink is not all good. I hate trying new things at Starbucks because it’s a waste of my money, and I just want my usual.
I woke up before 530 today, fuck I’m so tired. I’m gonna have to wake up early tomorrow too, work morning shift. Wednesday wake up early to drop babe off to school, get some sleep then we go to the commissary after he gets off work to do some regular/thanksgiving shopping. Hope there’s still enough choices for us! Then it’s thanksgiving, prolly wake up a little early to prep and start cooking or something. Hmm. Then oh dear, black Friday. I don’t even know what time I work anymore. It was 10, but there’s chances it’s gonna change since we open at midnight now -_- sucks that I live so close but I’m going to need to leave even earlier than early so I can try and find a parking lot. Id walk…but….idk. Maybe, depending on the weather. Then saturday I work at 1 I think. I don’t even remember. So much work…but I can’t complain, I enjoy work most of the time and I like finally having money.
Now today some of it is going towards this appointment, then my birth control, then parking. Then later it’s for groceries.
But yknow what, doing my makeup in my nice vanity and seeing Elliott through the mirror behind me, sleeping like a baby, it’s such a good feeling to wake up next to him every day now. I’m going to miss him a lot when he’ll be gone for 10 days. But who am I kidding, we’ve gone almost a year without seeing each other…we’ll be fine…
Not in school still cooking though, I’m a barber by trade. I still self teach myself consistently so I don’t feel like I’m wasting my time. That’s got to be nice! How about yourself what’s life got you into?
nice, i cook now too ^_^ back when i was with my parents i wasn’t motivated to cook cuz they were so picky and now that elliott is my judge, he inspires me to try a lot of new recipes. but that’s awesome that you’re teaching yourself that! respect bro. & yeah it’s been pretty nice finally being able to be with him. last time we were actually together for this long was high school lol. well i was in school for a year (last year) now that i’m here i don’t got G.I bill anymore so that’s over with for now. so i just work. sellin them clothes to the ladies LOL
had lunch in between two appointments because i had a major fail for one of them.
during lunch i commented on how weird it is that before we were just in high school not making any big decisions and now here we are sitting having lunch and trying to choose which apartment to live in. I can’t believe it. I mean, it’s just an odd feeling. but a great one at that. but now we can’t decide between two of them, and it sucks because they are both so great and we feel they may go quickly and we can’t make a decision as fast as we thought. i hope they don’t go away too fast :(